Standing on my Soap Box

So I haven’t sat down to do a blog in WAY too long, and I am sorry. Life has been just a little busy, and different. I finally got back into doing regular devotions/prayer time, and I’ve been doing a little listening prayer. This is where I pick up a red pen when I am writing my prayers and write what comes to my heart. Today’s blog is a little long, but I feel like my soap box is available, and I want you to read what God has said to me, that he is also saying to you through my writings.

Because I know that I don’t have the greatest view of myself, I know that some of these thoughts are certainly not ones that I would normally start with. So that said, here is some of the things I’ve had “Pop” into my mind and on the paper:

Good morning! I wish you would see you through my eyes. When you look at your children, is the first thing you see their mistakes, and their past sins, or do you look at them with love and joy. Are you not excited to see them? Oh, my word, that’s how I see you, with love and joy that you are going to sit down and spend time with me. Let me love you as you are. I know you aren’t perfect, no one is. Abraham wasn’t perfect, and yet he is in my word as “Abraham believed” or in Hebrews as “Abraham – by faith”

I am with you wherever you go. I know your dilemma and I know your heart. I am with you, I am going ahead of you. Do not fear, for I am with you.

One day I went to see a counsellor about an issue going on in my life. I prayed for her to be specific and to give me wisdom. She was specific, her answers were “cut and dry”, and there was no wishy-washy answer. And she cried over my story. Below is what I felt God saying to me.

My child, you asked in your heart for something specific and she was specific. She was grieved by what you shared. She doesn’t know you nor does she love you like I do. Imagine how deep my grief for you runs. Another’s sin has polluted your life and now its time to heal. Know that I had a purpose and you did not fail. Forgive yourself for what you think you’ve done. While I didn’t orchestrate it, I did allow it for my purpose. You will be stronger in the end.

I created them, just like I created you. I know you inside and out. Know that you ARE special, and I have great plans for you. I know what you’ve been through. I also know where I want you to head. Trust me, lean on me. Abide in me, and Il will speak volumes into your life. Remember, I saw the end before I saw the beginning.

Close to Father’s Day, my thoughts went to my dad. He is not my biological father; however, he has been with me and mom since I was 9 months old. Below is what God spoke to my heart about that:

“My child. I gave you a father through adoption who loves you. He gave up so much for you and he rejoices in you. You also have a biological father who turned his back on you before you were even born. I did all this for you to see and tell an early parallel of what my love is like. Your Dad’s love is imperfect as it is the love of an earthly father. Imagine what the love of your heavenly father is like. You know that I love you with a perfect love. Then stop pushing against me. Spend time WITH me not just about me. I am in the business of healing people. I will heal your hurts. As much as your dad loves you, I love you more and I love you perfectly. Know that you know that I love you. I truly want what’s best for you in your life. Trust me fully.”

Fear – I am good Sheila. When will you truly give up self. You are great at believing that I am trustworthy, however you need to get “out of the boat”. Trust that I am here for you. And I am not going to leave you I still have big plans for you and told you already to get ready. You need to let go and let God (me).

I am not silent. You just are not hearing me. I said earlier to love yourself. See yourself as special. You are worthy, let me love you.

Malachi 3:16 states those who feared the lord talked with each other and the Lord listened and heard.

“So, even when you talk to others I hear you. End of Story. I do hear you. I hear your heart, I hear your longings. I hear your grumblings I even hear your thoughts when you don’t want to hear my promptings. I HEAR YOU This isn’t chastisement, this is an encouragement. I am not deaf to your muttered longings. I am at work. I promise.

I know you think people over use Jeremiah 29:11 as a cliché and a crutch, but it is true. I do have good plans for you, please be patient (yes, I know that isn’t your strongest point or virtue. I love you Sheila with an everlasting, pure love. Not to get anything from your, but to give you an incredible life.

Let me ask you, you always thing about your dad and the great things he has done for you. How about you as a mom. I know you feel you screwed up, but what would you do for your kids. You are human, and you do mess up, I however am God, and there is a plan for all things I allow. You would bend over backwards for your family.

So, with all this said, I hope that you understand that God does love us. These words spoke to me were due to specific things going on in my life. However, I believe that these things are things that he could very easily say to all of us.

What is he trying to say to you?